Dear my fellow blog,
I am truly sorry for abandoning you the past few months!
I wouldn't have thought of this update being more than 4 months away*cough*from the previous post. My dear blog, You've missed out a lot of important things that changed my views you know? :)
So..
1. Being a student for more than a decade.
Uniforms, sport wears,sizes, colors, my wardrobe was always overloaded and interesting.
I once held my bag using both of my shoulders too, until they got lighter and lighter.
I used to wear a tie to school everyday, with a pair of black leather shoes- Yeah I polished them!
I was once a junior, a senior, a sophomore in high school.
Okay, It is hard not to feel nostalgic sometimes studying abroad.
Being out here alone, facing a whole new world without actual guidance, what I've seen and what I've felt seem so raw,so true, yet so mentally refreshing. I used to complain about how the education in my country sucks (truth is, they kind of do). I am still really impressed by the way western countries deliver knowledge. The liberalism, the freedom, the variety they provide, I always felt that THAT is the correct way of educating the next generation. When I first started my course in the UK, I had a hard time catching up the syllabus, mainly due to the language barrier that is so dreadful. Competing with students under a different educating scheme, you can easily find a common trend- we simple lack the confidence to voice out opinions, even though we do have the knowledge. Till then, I still am trying to improve mine and I am quite content with the progression so far.
#Sometimes muka mesti tebal sikit and tell others what you think! #
2. Being a (Failed) medical applicant
Well, opening up your mailbox to find four rejection letters from medical school is certainly not sweet. But this slight agony is healthy when it makes you rethink your decision.
I remembered the times when I rushed around completing my application without hesitation.
I once told myself : this is what you want to do for your life.
Till now, I realized how unreal, how naive it was.
I soon began to reconsider my choice: is this right for me?
Are you willing to tuck those hands in someone's ribcage with blood oozing in every direction?
Are you willing to be the one declaring the end of someone's life while wiping sweat off your forehead after a supreme resuscitation?
Wait, he has cancer, now tell him about that, if possible avoid telling him the short lifespan left while trying not to look into his red eyes that are filled with hope.
Even then, it is not sweet being in a tunic.
Am I trying to convince myself to give up you say?
Nope, I'm not giving up applying just yet.
Those rejections did woke me up someway. I rethought, and this is certainly my best choice for a career. To friends who are prospective medics too- Never give up!
It is a long journey- But i am sure it is worth it!
#tip: Do not enroll if you don't have the passion--Cliche i know! but trust me, you won't want to go through it and torture yourself for six years *Nod and smiles*
I would leave the rest for the next update-possibly in a few weeks time!
Couldn't wait for my trip to Germany with my best friend! Will update with photos if possible :)
Until then,
Ce la vie~
